People say that what we’re all seeking is a meaning for life. I don’t think that’s what we’re really seeking. I think that what we’re seeking is an experience of being alive, so that our life experiences on the purely physical plane will have resonances with our own innermost being and reality, so that we actually feel the rapture of being alive. – Joseph Campbell, The Power of Myth.
I live an exceptional life. Every day is different from the previous and the next. I choose to live in a trailer so that I have the option to get outside daily – instead of a walk-in closet or a daily shower.
I have done most anything I can think of to avoid being bogged down by the aspects of life that hold you down. Those that, effectively, make you forget that you are alive.
I also choose to live in society. I choose to have a smart phone and health insurance. I pay my taxes and take Little Dude to get his rabies vaccination.
And, often, all of those have-to-dos pile up, and I can’t avoid feeling weighed down. With freelance work, it’s all up to you – without a syllabus, your success is completely dependent on how much effort you put in. Balance is difficult to achieve, and I always feel behind. There’s the feature-length documentary we’re editing, oh and that non-profit festival that’s a few weeks away. Don’t forget the family and friends that you want to keep in touch with. Wait…what happened to getting outside daily?
So as my birthday neared and Spenser asked a simple question,
“What are you going to do for your birthday challenge?”
It felt as though another to-do was added to my list, another block on my teetering pyramid that I’m just trying to keep from crashing down. Now I just want to pull the covers over my head and hide.
It’s been 5 years since my last birthday challenge, and I’ve used up every excuse I can think of to not do one – too busy, too overwhelmed, my life is a birthday challenge – and my personal favorite: I’m editing a film that largely revolves around birthday challenges, so that’s enough.
I guess this was the year I was out of excuses, so I committed to doing a birthday challenge.
We’re parked 45 minutes drive from Lander, and I liked the idea of doing a self-motorized challenge to/from camp. There’s plenty of 4WD/ATV roads that I could use to make a loop, which would be about 30-40 miles and 5000+ feet of elevation gain. Spenser mentioned that the road would probably be rocky and loose, so I decided to do a trial run on Venessa “Road” in Sinks Canyon. What has the surname of road around Wyoming, is not always what we think of as roads back in California.
Venessa Road was indeed, very rocky and loose. I rode my bike for the first quarter of a mile, a nice slight uphill dirt bit dotted by rocks. Quickly, the road was all rocks, many the size of basketballs. Once I lost momentum and teetered off my bike, my complete lack of mountain biking skills and the looseness of the rocks determined the rest of the uphill part of the ride. I pushed my bike the rest of the way up the 1,000 foot climb. A clean-shaven rancher with aviator sunglasses and a cowboy hat passed me on his ATV on his way up. He passed me again on his way down, as I was still going up, noting that I wasn’t doing much riding. All I could do was laugh – and decide that 5,000 feet of this was not what I wanted my birthday challenge to be.
Back to the drawing board. I knew I wanted my birthday to celebrate what was special about Lander. And, of course, I needed to hurt.
It was still summer and still warm in Wyoming – but I missed bouldering, so I knew I wanted to include some of it in my challenge. I liked the idea of biking since I hadn’t had a big day on my “new” bike (a hand-me-down from Spenser’s cousin who is 10 years younger and nearly a foot taller than me). Lastly, I knew I wanted 5 baked goods from the Lander Bake Shop to be part of the challenge because it’s pretty special that the only bakery in Lander makes gluten-free baked goods daily. So the challenge became:
Start at the Lander Bake Shop (with my 5 baked goods) and bike to the top of Sinks Canyon (15.5 miles, 3,200 feet of elevation). En route, I need to do 32 different boulder problems, at least 10 on each of the different rock types in Sinks Canyon (sandstone, dolomite, granite).
Things got a bit grim on the dolomite. I did a really great V1 & V2 to start, but my fingers never recovered from the pain they caused so the rest of the problems I had to do on limestone were rough. Because, limestone.
That last one took me a solid 7 tries. It was a V1 and it was a typical mental block where I just couldn’t gather myself enough to do a move to get me over the bulge. I took a solid 5 minute break and fnally did it.
The sun was fading fast, so I was thankful that I could do 8 out of 10 granite problems on the Lizard Lab boulder. Then, I needed to finish my ride which I was a bit anxious to get on with since I had around 7 miles and 2,200 feet of elevation to go…
I got to the top of the canyon in about 2 hours, around 8pm. There was just enough light left to eat a snack and grab a couple crash pads. Spenser had driven up to the Source earlier and scouted my last 2 boulder problems.
As with all solid birthday challenges, I finished in the dark. Well, I actually completed my challenge on the drive back to Kian & Kelsey’s because I still had 2 baked goods to eat. The cheddar scone was the biggest sandbag – I sat quietly in the passenger seat and choked it down piece by piece as we drove down the canyon. Just like eating a scone that grandma made, if she forgot the butter and used chalk instead.
What you didn’t think was going to be a sandbag, always ends up catching up with you.
I didn’t eat anything else for dinner. But, damn, that was a good birthday challenge! It was a great goodbye to Lander for the season.
My favorite part was that every boulder I climbed on was new. That was rad. The limestone was really painful. The bike ride was surprisingly noneventful, I know now that I can peddle uphill for a long time – as long as it’s not too steep. There was a mighty headwind, however, and certain points in the ride where I was completely stalled.
Support. So thankful to have Spenser as my sag wagon all day, and to Kelsey for doing the first part of the biking and climbing with me. It was really nice to have someone there to get going with because I was feeling all kinds of lazy after my double breakfast. And I don’t think I could have completed the challenge if Spenser did not carry at least meet me with crash pads – I would have just gotten knocked over by the gusts on the road. Since it’s been a while, I forgot how crucial it is to have great support on these things. It can determine is you finish or not, and while that doesn’t matter since it’s you challenging yourself – it’s always nice to finish something. Also, it’s usually really fun for the people who join you – mostly because they get to see you suffer.
“Pain is good. Life your life.” – Bob Banks, Oceans 11.